Diary

Страх -наш самый большой враг!

2011-07-05T13:57:00.000-07:00

Страх это наш самый большой враг! Не буду говорить о банальных страхов от высоты, пауков и остальных мелких страхов! Страх быть одной! Вспомните минуты когда хотели уйти, бросить, начать с начала, начать новую жизнь... НО вы остались, вы успокоили себя мыслями: он измениться, он станет лучше, я ему помогу, он перестанет пить, бить, гулять.... и так далее и так далее.. И наверное даже сейчас при себе ищите новые отмазки и оправдания... он устал... у него стресс... тяжёлое детство... Да и мне не куда идти... уже столько времени вместе живём! И вот ОН наш страх который нас губит! Который нашу жизнь превращает в ад! И тут вступает самая лучшая отговорка и успокаивающие:а ведь могло быть и хуже... а потом мы начинаем усердно искать позитивные черты там где их в принципе та и нету.... начинается что то вроде: но он у меня не курит!! он деньги домой приносит..... он мне мусор выносит.... И мы начинаем просто концентрировать наше внимание на это и себя уговариваем какой же он хороший... а плохое мы питаемся скрыть, игнорировать.... Живём двойной а может быть и тройной жизнью! Так же и наши дети, если они есть конечно....

А надо ли?? Надо ли себя заживо закапывать? Надо ли детей мучить? НЕТ, дорогие не надо! Будьте честны к себе, потом вам никто спасибо не скажет.. а жизнь лишь одна, другого шанса уже не будет построить сказку, причём сказку не на словах а реальную сказку! Отойдите на минутку и задумаэс стоит ли дело свеч? Стоит ли забыть про себя на веки вечные и впутать ещё в это детей! Нужно ли им видит такую семейную картину и жить вечном стрессе, или лучше собраться... собрать всю свою смелость и отвагу и УЙТИ! Начать заново... спокойно... и для себя... для детей!! И смотрите и ваш принц на белом коне прискачет вам... а так может и мимо пройти пока вы будете держаться за утопающего!!

2011-07-04T13:37:00.000-07:00

Have you ever thought how much people hide? How much people live double lives?

Let's be honest none of us have to tell ALL! We choose what to tell by ourselves! Some of us are more honest that say as it is with no pretty facts or something like that, someone choose to tell just half of the story... and the most foxy ones will tell just the thing that all would think they are the victims...

Imagine the world with no lies. just truth... ALL truth!! Crazy no?

A good time ago I watched a film "Invention of lying", watch it you will find a lot of interesting things and thoughts in it!

Only in the moment when you stop...

2011-05-23T15:52:00.000-07:00

Only in the moment when you stop, you understand were are you and if you're in the right place! But how often we just run like squirrels in the wheel! You run and run and run.. you don;t even see what is around you, is it summer, trees, maybe flowers, maybe it's a dump... Maybe someone waits you to stop... But then you stop, you really stop.. and you understand that it's not your wheel, it;s too big for you... it's too wide or it's just not your wheel but you have run in it for a such a long time... you may carry on doing that because you have done it for many years.. but you can stop, you know? you can stop and find your wheel! It will be different then, life will be different and you will be able to stop to look around, you wont be scared from the moment when wheel stops...

Mamas' boy

2011-03-21T14:33:00.000-07:00

It was a lovely spring day today but I will not talk about spring maybe just in some way!

I recently read couple of article with the topic 'Mama's boy", it all started with my e-mail! It is always full of junk and spam from all sorts of websites and rarely I take look in them! This time I was caught by the theme of e-mail.. I don't remember it already but there was something about mother-in -law! I read short story about family who has problems with mother in law,then I want to comments ( sometimes they are more interesting then the article) and there it was " Mama's boy is the most awful experience in women life"

So I started my search for articles about this theme. I am still straggling to understand why a grown up man cannot figure out that he is ruining his personal life and why mother wants her son to be only hers! Of course as a mother woman does a lot, but we don't make children for ourselves I think, in one beautiful day they should fly away like a birds and make their own nest! That's life! From other side is the same, one day we have to start life independently!

To all girls out there spot the mama's boy before it gets serious, because you might be happier without experiencing life with him!

So how to know it is a Mama's boy:

constantly calls her, tells her everything and I mean literally everything
still lives with her even if he is 25,30 maybe even 40 / you will know the difference when it's ok / he might also live close to her
he might be a looser / I mean no work no nothing/ but he might be a successful
if his mother calls he will run to her even if he is making love to you
and the most simplest thing if his mother is in the first place every time, he might even say that can;t imagine his life without her and so on / we all can't imagine our lives without mother but we don't forget to live ours/

Good luck to you all and be careful with your choices!

P.S.- he are some articles that I read first three are in Russian and then two in English:

http://www.naritsyn.ru/selfhelp/all/rodst/mamdeti.htm

http://www.myjane.ru/articles/text/?id=674

http://gazeta.aif.ru/online/dochki/211-212/06_01

http://newlyweds.about.com/od/gettingalong/a/mamasboys.htm

http://uk.askmen.com/dating/heidi_100/109_dating_girl.html

water in our lives

2011-03-15T13:26:00.000-07:00

I made this video a while ago, today I just remembered about it and wanted to share it!

In the end there is a text in Russian, I was too lazy to make a version in English so I will translate it in here:

From 100% of all water in the World there are only 2,5% of fresh water!

1,4 milliard people don't have access to clean water ( it is more then a 1/3 of all people in the world)

2,2 million people every year die from illnesses connected with shortage of water!

The primary factor of water pollution in the World is activity of human!

I am giving a link to my first publication of this video there are more links with information about this theme!

http://carreragtffi3.blogspot.com/2009/05/water-in-our-lives.html

P.S.- links in there are in Russian

'Black Swan' / film /

2011-03-15T06:31:00.000-07:00

It's was already late so I thought will just watch the beginning of the film to know about what is it and go to sleep! Instead of that I watched all film, I couldn't stop! It just took me!

In some moments it is even scary but not like demon or vampire or some other films that you watch and hen from nowhere some ugly looking creep appears! 'Black Swan' is more psychological! You watch and your all in it, you try to figure out why... what's that.. how is that possible... and so on!

I would definitely watch it again because I loved it! I loved how it took me and didn't let me go!

Remember childhood...

2011-03-10T12:14:00.000-08:00

Just remember how easy it was when you were 6 or 10! The biggest problem was mummy doesn't let you out for a walk! Or yo didn't get crisps or chocolate or in school you have to do exercise or something like that! You know these are the best problems ever!! Enjoy them! Enjoy the time when you are afraid to sleep without light because someone lives in your wardrobe! After some years you will be afraid to sleep with light because afterwards bill will come for electricity!

And remember how happy were you when mummy asked you to go to shop and buy bread for example? It was like the best shopping ever because you new you might get not only bread! Now? shopping is not so joyful! There are millions of bags, a list of hundreds of stuff that you need and in the end a cheque! But we so wanted to be grown ups one day! If we only new what is life for the...

Formula of life

2011-02-05T11:35:00.000-08:00

A lot of thing were in my mind and in evening, I would even say night, when my daughter was falling asleep, I was sitting besides her bed. It was dark and only light in a room was from a window.. I took a pen and notepad and started to write what is on my mind not even seeing what I am writing! In next morning I read what I have written..

I wrote about life, about love and about biggest question that anyone could ask, about Mr Right, or prince charming or whatever you call him...

Let's face it, you never know!! You just get lucky! It's like buying unknown candy in shop! It looks nice, maybe even smells wonderful you buy it! Go home and try it.. and it's rubbish!! But in the same moment it might be very delicious! You never know!

There is no formula with which you could live happily ever after or something like that.. even if you thin you have found it!! After days, months or even years it might be wrong! But sometime you have this wish do it like in school, write answers from nowhere or take a look in your neighbour job ;) But you can't do that in life!! You have to do all by yourself! And I mean it, by yourself!!

real life? ( after watching 'sex in the city 2 ' )

2010-12-11T04:19:00.000-08:00

At last I watched 'Sex in the City 2' ! I know I am slow and I should have seen it ages ago! But anyway I did it!!!! And you know the strangest thing... usually, OK not usually but when I was watching 'sex in the city' I loved it, it was fun and interesting, the outfits were amazing and the stories brilliant! But now after the film I thought: that's so not true! that's so not real life!!

Like common were have you seen man who give a ring with a diamond in size of your eye like present because you have cheated on him???

And how on earth you can get a trip to Abu Dabi or anywhere else for free and private plain and cars and so on and so on...

If you know, please do tell me were!! And I will be there in the second!!

These thoughts about reality just spoiled all my watching!

And why I didn't think about it some years ago?

P.S.- Film was good actually it wasn't rubbish!

Organic?!

2010-09-07T03:52:00.000-07:00

Recently all organic things have been really popular! Some people are going organic in everything! Couple days ago I read a post in one forum about health, one lady asked an advice were could she get magnesium, organic magnesium! Doctor prescribed her to drink magnesium because of some problems with heart! And the lady read what is in the pills that she needed to take, find something on internet and found many things that are bad!!! So she searched just the magnesium! I thought that's just crazy!! It's your health!!! If the person is so afraid of chemicals and stuff like that what can she do in her life? Chemicals are everywhere! You can make your own cosmetic, why not... you can eat organic food, that's fine! But what about air??? You can't not breathe... and I am sure there are a lot, and I a mean a lot of thing in the air that are not really good for our health!

And let's be honest, have someone died from using cream or shampoo or toothpaste or medicine ( if they use it like it should be)? I think no! So people don't get crazy about organic things, what is too much is TOO MUCH!!!

I am back

2010-08-28T08:38:00.000-07:00

I am back for better or for worse!

I know nobody knew, but screen of my computer died!! So I was left with very very slow Internet while good people were repairing my computer! And now it's all over, I have my computer, my good Internet!!

So in soon future, there will be posts from me ;)

Go to church to play or pray?

2010-05-30T14:27:00.000-07:00

Should children, babies attend church? Sunday service? Should they be with their parents.. I know that some churches even how service for children!! That's brilliant!! Because they might get bored with the service.. And what about babies?? Should parents wait till they grow up and then go to church! Or they all just go, it doesn't matter that the little one will cry.. it is a living person it is his way of expressing himself! Once one lady said to me: if I hear a baby's voice in church I know there is a life! It makes the service better!! And I agree with that, I know it's a bit annoying when babies cry and it is stressful for mother BUT doesn't take you a way from God? When I was little I went to church with my granny, I wasn't interested in service, I liked the singing thou but I need to stay there till the time she said we are going home! Today I came I cross with totally different point of view! I went to church and after 10 minutes or something all children went away.. for service? NO! To play!!!! How nice is that? Literally I would be playing with my baby all the service, I wouldn't even hear it!! Because my baby is always good at services I thought I WILL GO TO THE SERVICE!! You should see the expression of face of grown ups when I said that!! It was like: don't go there! She will cry! You will disturb the rest!!

I still went there and you know? She was sleeping all the service!!

So what is best? Go and be in church with children or go to church to play with your children??

Kartupelju zupa baltaa

2010-05-27T07:25:00.000-07:00

Pirmkaart datoraa nav latvieshu valodas taapeec garumziimes un co izpaliks!

Otrkaart neesmu zupu gatavoshanas fans bet shii man patika..

taatad vajadzees:

paaris kartupeljus ( viss atkariigs no izmeera protams)

olas dzeltenums

piens

zaljuminji (kalteeti vai svaigi kas ir tas ir labi)

siipols

saals

Taatad uzvaaram kartupeljus kaa parasti saalsuudenii, uudeni nolejam kaadaa citaa traukaa!
Kartupeljus uztaisam biezenii / vienkaarshi sastampaajam ar kaut ko ;) /
Sakuljam olas dzeltenumu ar pienu un pielejam klaat kartupeljiem. Apmaisam, pielejam uudeni kuraa vaariijaas kartupelji, pievienojam arii sagriezto siipolu! Uzsildam, bet neuzvaaram!
Uzberam virsuu zaljuminjus un gatavs!!

Var arii pievienot mazliet siera, no zalumiem-dilles, oregano viss kas patiik :)

P.S.- to those who don't know Latvian I will try to translate this so that you could try to prepare this soup also!

Amusing facts...

2010-05-26T10:44:00.000-07:00

I wanted to find something funny and I remembered about funny facts so I went to google

here are some of the facts->

American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating one olive from each salad served in first class.

They really count olives in your salad?? How you then order them, ' please deliver 2000 olives! ' and then someone just counts them... That would be a boring job!!

The botanical name of the chocolate plant is Theobramba cacao, which means "Food of the Gods."

I knew that chocolate is good!!

There are no cemeteries in San Fransisco, CA

Really?? Do people live for eternity or something in there?

The Kama Sutra lists over 30 types of kisses, such as “fighting of the tongue.”

I don't even know what to say. 30??!!! Do you need actual sex if there is a 30 ways to kiss?? No, I know you need it but still...

Kissing may have originated when mothers orally passed chewed solid food to their infants during weaning.

Yah!!! I could say something more about this, but I am so not in mood to do that...

Kissing at the conclusion of a wedding ceremony can be traced to ancient Roman tradition where a kiss was used to sign contract.

Now just imagine if this tradition would spread to the world and would be still alive! Imagine bank.. shops any places were you sign a contract...

The most children born to one mother is 69!! Between 1725 - 1765, The first wife of Feodor Vassilyev in Shuya, Russia, with a total of 27 pregnancies, gave birth to 16 pairs of twins, 7 sets of triplets, and 4 sets of quadruplets. 67 of the 69 children survived infancy.

That's just something!!!!!

World is full of amusing fact!!! And by the way if you want some more -> http://www.amusingfacts.com/

Chicken thigh surprise

2010-05-24T00:48:00.000-07:00

I loved this, my husband loved this so I want to share this recipe!

You will need: chicken thighs

eggs

mushrooms

onions

2 spoons of mayonnaise

salt,pepper ( if you want for meat)

oil

Take off the skin of thighs carefully, you will need it later. Cut the meat in small pieces. Cut the mushrooms and onions. If you want you can fry them a little bit. Them mix the onions and mushrooms with egg and meat and the mayonnaise! Put this all in the skins that you took of at the beginning! It will look somehow like a thigh at the end. Then put it all in oven for 30 minutes at 200. Serve with potatoes, rice anything you like!

And that's it! Bon appetit!!

Next time when I will make it I will take a pictures to show how it looks like!

Epilator

2010-05-22T12:01:00.000-07:00

I DID IT!! I bought an epilator! I planned to do that already long time ago, I always looked at them in shops but bought something else. Now I did it, I have it!! It took me 2 days to to put myself together and epilate! Why in commercials it looks so nice? And not painful??

Yesterday I got answer, because there is nothing on their legs!! In other cases....

It is painful!! I tried all tips to make it less painful, that why it took me 2 days!

I tried shower before, I tried a spray that should make this process less painful, I even tried cold towel! It was still painful!! At the end I just said to myself: I have it!! I have to do it!!!

And I did it!! Now I will wait for results-how long my legs will stay smooth!!

MLM!!!!!!

2010-05-13T08:32:00.000-07:00

Yesterday by searching something ( I don't remember what already) I found some information about MLM! So I got curious and searched for more. I started to search about bad things, problems about MLM. And I just could not resist of reading couple articles about that all. Just in case let's make clear at the beginning I am not against MLM, I am not offending someone I just have thoughts about what I read!

One of the thoughts: why I have to buy a place in a company if I will be selling their products to other people! It's like buying myself a job, every month!! Strange... Ok you could say we are not selling the products we are selling the opportunities or something like that.. but I still have to buy products right?

The next thing that kind of bothers me, They say their product is unique or it's the cheapest that you can get.. or something like that! And don' t forget that the product will make your life better.. it will do that and that and you just can't live without it! I really think that it's a bit difficult to invent something really new for example in cosmetics or vitamins, cleaning.. it's already invented! Seriously! Take a look in shops and Ethernet.look up for that unique products! And know the price!! Cheaper? Don't think so! Take off all the possible commissions that distributors can get.. just think how many their could be.. how many they get.. and know think how much really the product cost??

Now let's move to people!! I just loved the sentence that I read in on of the articles: " At seminars, you will frequently hear the Heavy-Hitter buildup: "Maybe Mr. Such-And-Such" will be here today!" The excitement is such that when Mr. Such-And-Such finally appears, you'd think Moses just came down from the mountain."

I was just lifted up by this! People have built a legend about someone, he or she is like God! It's like touching the sky!! Common get real!! Search information about this "God", if he is so rich so.. successful he or she will appear somewhere in the Internet!! If he is nowhere to find the all thing might not be true...

By this all I am not saying that MLM is the worst thing in planet! I have tried it.. I have meet the people.. tried the product, read about it, explored it! Some of the products are quite nice and I am actually using some. There are rich people in MLM but they have build their companies and their on top not in a middle or bottom!

Here will be some links to pages that I read-> http://www.vandruff.com/mlm_FAQ.html#22

http://www.quatloos.com/mlm/mlm.htm

http://www.quatloos.com/mlm/mlm-links.htm

Plans :)

2010-05-11T05:19:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to tell you about my newest ideas and plans about my blog, there will be some changes! So I plan to add a new page! It will be about my craft and things that I make! Then I have an idea to put together some of the pages that I have already!

And the biggest plan of all: I will write more often!!

Have a good day and if you can catch the sun and spring it's absolutely adorable! ;)

Luxuries life for everyone!!

2010-04-23T05:45:00.000-07:00

World is changing in all its appearances and values! There is no such a world that our parents knew or lived in! There were people who worked and there were rich people! The happy one I could say who had it all and had the best things ever. And you could think that you can’t change that, you won’t own a Ferrari or villa in Bahamas because you won’t earn such big money!! And you’re not a businessman or women type! You know? I have news for you, you can! Now you are thinking I will try to get you in a company, MLM or something like that promises a luxuries life and big money! NO!! There is a new movement, new way of living I could say! Fractional living! With such living you can live like a millionaire not being a millionaire in reality! You can own amazingly expensive things like yachts, villas, cars anything that usually own a people with money in their bank account written in many numbers! You’re probably already wondering how? It’s all about sharing!!! You can own Ferrari, the part of Ferrari! You can use it for some of the time in a year and that’s it! Let’s be honest we are not using many things every day! Let’s go back to Ferrari, let’s just imagine that you have bought it! A fortune spent but that’s not all, you have to pay for insurance, maintenance and so on it doesn’t stop. Now let’s imagine that you have bought the Ferrari partly, the cost was no so big, you’re driving in it for example 3 weeks a year or more depends how many owners there are.. but still you have it and cheaper! Isn’t that amazing? So millionaires don’t get used to your luxuries life maybe soon all will have such life for some time in year!
If you want to learn about this way of life just search for it in the inthernet!

To be a professional..

2010-03-18T13:57:00.000-07:00

Interesting how some people think that they are professionals and all just have to want their work!! It’s like when you come from countryside and you are amazing for example in singing or you were the best Dj. You were the star!! The best in there! And you have loads of experience… years of making discos and parties in your village.. And then you go to big city! Here the fun starts! Let’s call this person Bob just to make telling easier.. Ok Bob is in a big city. What Bob will do? Search for a job, of course! Like a big star he will go to some club, big club! And it doesn’t matter that he knows just a tiny bit from all, he is a star and all just have to want him! And his experience!!

Does it really work like that??? You just come like a superstar and that’s it? I don’t think so… You should study something, learn something more.. Then add your experience and go for it!! It can’t be like: now I will break all my bones and then I will know how not to do that! And by this I am not saying don’t risk or something. Just don’t do it such a stupid way because you can ruin all your chances to be something!! You know bad thing stay in our memory…

What comes first: money or time?

2010-03-18T13:55:00.000-07:00

What is more important or what should come first:
• Knowledge of money
or
• Knowledge of time

Should you first learn how to deal with money or time? That is the question! Is it: “ no money- a lot of time?” or “A lot of money- no time?” Maybe first you should learn how to get and what to do with money and then think about time.. Because if you know how to plan everything but you have empty fridge.. It doesn’t really work well, don’t you think? Because if so there is definitely something wrong with your plans with money..

An excuse...

2010-03-18T13:50:00.000-07:00

Sometimes life seems so funny but not always and not all realizes that..

I still remember words:

“Your tiredness is just an excuse to shout at me…. “

That’s so hilarious in reality! I didn’t realize it then… Just imagine pregnant women (in 7^th or 8^th month of pregnancy) still working half of the day on her feet.. not saying a thing if after work she has to go to sop or somewhere else and then sentence about excuse!! Just think what could be the answer..

“Yes, it is my excuse! I do all to be tired so that I could shout at you!! “

“ No…”

Ok after “ no “ I don’t really know what could follow because “ I am just tired.. “ seems not the right thing or argument that you could use in such situation. Maybe you can just say:

“ No, it’s not.. You just don’t understand how it is… “

But if seriously I wish all man could experience all things that women are going trough. But then again we might run out of men, because they would not survive! But maybe we just take too much on us.. Has someone said that we have to do this all???

Happy moments...

2009-12-14T07:47:00.000-08:00

1. Christmas time... happy people around... little bit chilly outside.. Christmas songs and decorations...
No snow here but the nice people around make it all better!

Just imagine how you are sitting at fireplace in candlelight... enjoying mulled vine... with mandarins or minced pies.. and all that together with someone you love!! Ideal evening no?

For me it could be a little bit different without the vine.. and with baby kicking... but still enjoyable evening!

2. Christmas lunch! Was there!! Amazing company!! Wonderful place.. ok maybe the food was not so good but with good company you can do and eat everything!!
It was first time that I was in such event and I really enjoyed.. Christmas crackers... songs.. amazing!! Big Thanks to those people who invited me!! God bless you all!!

3. Russian party!! That was something I felt really close to home.. it reminded me of time when we were making parties in Latvia with friends! Songs... dances.. food... Totally loved it!!!

4. Crocheting!!! Angels.. baby clothes... all!!! It takes time and it's very good for relaxation...

You know I could carry on with these moments.. because when you start to search for happiness you might get it ;) Enjoy yourselves and be happy!!! And don;t forget to make someone else happy ;)

just a message...

2009-12-04T06:25:00.000-08:00

Life is so good in reality! And so strange but still we do it all!! If something is not going like you wanted, you still did it! You choose it for some reason! And sometimes you have to choose to be in not very good situation, so that you could move on to something bigger.. just try to remember that you are moving to something bigger! Yes, maybe you have to share all the facilities in your house with loads of people and live like in Chine! Or maybe you have to live with couple of pennies in our pocket and empty fridge for weeks... Just remember why.. and move on! You know when don't really have place for yourself it is very god reason to do something and to move on!!!
And then it's December.. Christmas time.. remember those who are not even so lucky as you.. remember children in need, elderly people who are alone... Maybe just by having a word or cup of tea with them or just giving them your lovely smile you will make their day better! You never know... but it is worth doing...

Love each other my friends and hope for best in your life!!

How it all could go / 2 variants /

2009-10-16T09:36:00.000-07:00

First you get a job and roof on your head,
Second start thinking about what you want to do, maybe business, or you want to work in some special sphere anything, maybe you will need to study something.
You can do it because you already have salary, you an buy food, you have roof on your head. If you need some extra money you can find some part time job or something else, it's fine, I think!
BUT if you try to do it in other way like go for mad ideas and then search for job.. then it becomes a problem! why? Because you don;t really have any money to buy food or rent a flat or room or something like that you have dreams and ideas and that's it! In such variant good that someone is near who can help, but you know it is not so easy to be that someone, just remember it!
In any case try to be happy and make others happy as well!

Questions

2009-10-11T13:49:00.000-07:00

Could it be that you run out of strengths to dream? What to do if each time you just bang on a reality? It's like a wall.. It should not be like that.. every person should have a right to dream no matter what is happening in life! So the question arouses:where to get strengths to do it? how do be so optimistic... How not to lose something good in this difficult time..
Other question: what should be first the reality with job or ideas about something that may work or may not.. I suppose that ideas are parts of dreams. It may be true may be not, but you can lose something essential or / of course / you can win something!!
I just don't know what to do in the moment should I try to believe in ideas, in dreams or just try to be real.. maybe it is part of life of grown up people? You just start thinking in other way? You start living not in your dreams but in reality, that you are not alone.. you have family.. you have obligations.. and you have to deal with that on your own!! But maybe too many problems in life makes it like that..

3 months

2009-10-01T07:35:00.000-07:00

Just take a break and watch short video! :)
And believe in miracles, they happen!! I know that sometimes it is hard to believe and there are no strengths to do that! Then take a break... relax!! Take it easy and be happy!!

P.S.- thanks to my husband and his love to me.. you give me the strengths to go and do something ;)

feel like an angel..

2009-09-11T09:54:00.000-07:00

" Feel like an angel, manage to hear your laughing, in every puddle see the sky! "

the world could be happier living like that ;) Try it and you will see!

.. about strengths...

2009-09-06T13:16:00.000-07:00

I wonder is it possible to have so much strengths that nothing can make your day bad! Can you just be with yourself if you have decided that your day will be just amazing it will be that's it! Or if you think you will be fine then you will and you don;t start to think about something else when people are start sharing their thoughts about that... Very often people think bad things or say bad things, it's something like expect the worst then in the end it could be better!! Why?? Why you can just expect good things and don;t think about bad... wouldn't it be better?
It could be easier if you are not alone then you in case of something someone will protect you.. or help you! But if you are alone with your thoughts and almost each person who you meet thinks that it is his or her duty to say his opinion then it is VERY HARD!! But still there is God out there who can help you.. who can give you the strengths or all that you just have to believe.. believing is everything!!

when you are away, what do you need?

2009-08-28T08:34:00.000-07:00

what are the most important things when you are alone somewhere,like in other town, city or even country or continent?
One can be the place were are you staying, let's say that we are planning to live in this place so it must be an apartment or just a room /temporally of course because you can't live in one room forever / ok, when you have the roof on your head, you need to eat something, that simple if you have money, if no then it is a problem! Anyway you should find a job or something from were you will get the money! When that all is complete begins the most interesting part!! You can't be alone! You need someone to talk.. to chat... you need your friends, family someone..and at this point sometimes the problems come, because the fact that you need them not always mean that they need you! They could be busy.. what to do then? The answer could be simple: find new friends! The answer is easy but the reality is not! Maybe there is some other way.. make a plan? appointments? I don't know but there should be some way out so that you can talk with those you are not with you.. There should be.. but I don't yet know it...

To be apart- not a good idea!

2009-08-25T13:48:00.000-07:00

Life is changing! I am a wife now, soon I will be a mother! I am starting to live with idea of the first but the second one is some kind of mistery for me still! And now when I am seperated from my beloved husband for some time, I feel so sad, it’s not good. It’s like I miss something, I don’t have something with me. Even if somtime we misunderstand each other or something like that or not all is like we would want he still is a half of me! And it’s impossible to be apart in such situations so I wake up and go to sleep with a thought in my head that he will soon be with me! I watch our photos, listen to his songs very often, I am very happy when I get some message fom him then I feel better and I don’t feel so far away from him! Maybe it will be different when I will start to wok, then I will have less time to think about it all, I defenetly need a calendar so that I could count days or something till he arrives! But the problem is that I don’t know exact date, but I will hope and leave all my problems to God! He will help I think!

A man can love million girls...

2009-08-24T12:13:00.000-07:00

" A MAN can love MILLION GIRLS, but only a REAL man can LOVE ONE GIRL in a million ways! " -just read it in some chat! And just thought I am the happy one, my husband is a real man!!

And after I just started to think if this works even when you are far away from your man? who wants to be more closer.. or be faster together? Is it man or not?

Anyway sometimes you just can't make the world better.. it's just is what it is and you can't to all by yourself that's or sure!

Our Story from my point of view!

2009-08-19T09:51:00.000-07:00

It’s all written somewhere!! And if you really want something it will come true!!

I didn’t believe in love anymore in my life! Of course I knew it is somewhere.. some couples really love each other and you can see that! But for me it was.. no way I will find something like that and I thought I will live with a man who is a good, maybe not an ideal but still I will try to make something good of him. So I started the relationships with a man that loved me very much! It was not the cleverest idea that I have had in my life that’s for sure! One month, second month.. relationships were somewhere I even don't’ know were.. sometimes it was really interesting, notwithstanding the fact that I just hated how he sometimes acts.. his ideas sometimes too didn’t quiet went together with mine, so there were misunderstandings. I was pretending to be patient and was trying to make from him something, someone with whom I could live with all my life but still I knew he will not propose marriage or kids in nearest future but I somehow wanted it.. even if just like an idea.. not real marriage and so on. So in such time when I had a boyfriend kind of… with whom I had quarrels and so on.. I unexpectedly meet a man! It was my best friend’s birthday and we went to bar with live music.. And there he was on a stage! We were flirting a bit.. but it was just like a play.. game.. My friend wanted a song or her so I want to this man to ask that! In the time while I was ordering to him a song for my friend he was asking about me! So after he knew my name and so on.. He sung a song.. we chatted a bit.. he had a small dog who was waiting him at a car.. I wanted to meet the dog!! / and it was strange because I am not a fan of small dogs/ So the evening ended, he said when he will be there again and that we are welcome to come! At that point I was really thinking that I will some next week, but I couldn’t. So we meet after a month at the same place.. I was a bit ignorant.. but he came to us.. remembered me.. even made a compliment to me! I was trilled and surprised! Still nothing happened! But I knew one day there will be something and that day came after some weeks! I went to there with my friends and at this time.. I went away with him!! After that we kind of clicked! I loved how he sang songs to me… How he treated me… How he understood me! But at that moment I was in relationships and he was too… bu that was not for long time.. because for the first time in my life I started to miss a person already when I have pronounced the word goodbye, I already started to think when I will meet him again.. So after some time we were together and I was the happiest girl in Universe!! That was love! After some weeks being together I moved to his place.. Still loved him, didn’t hate a thing! And after 7 months he became my beloved husband! I felt even better and happier! We didn’t’ have big weding but it was the best wedding that I have saw and I have wanted! It was all that I have dreamed of! And the funniest thing is that after marriage it’s like a new life begin just now we are ONE! One sol in two bodies! I love my husband and I thank God that I have him!

To all I can say, don’t stop believing! And don’t think that in one beautiful day your man will change in to ideal!! If you don’t like something say it! If it doesn’t change the situation, go away! Don’t waste your life!! And when you are really happy with someone you are thrown to heaven from thought that you will share your life with him, get married! There will be no excuses not to do that… because not the carrier not financial problems can make trouble for those who love each other and are meant to be together!

Many in one place…

2009-08-16T11:58:00.000-07:00

I have a thought that I don’t like to live with many people in apartment or house. Ok, someone could say: who does? But it’s just that I don’t feel right living, because I always think what to do to not trouble others so from normal person I go to mouse or something! It’s ok when 4 people live in apartment, each have their room and so on, but if it’s more then four, then it’s not so good! Just imagine if in this apartment there is one toilet, one bathroom.. it’s not really the dream come true to wait when something will be free… Also the kitchen could be a problem if it’s small, and a fridge! Can you imagine how much can eat 6 people? Were should they put all they belongings? And what if they all want to eat in the same time, but room in a kitchen is only for 3 or maximum 4! Someone will have to wait til he or she gets to supper or dinner or breakfast! There could be a way out, if they all work in different time so that when someone is in the house some are out, it could be the answer. I can’t think of something else, of course better would be just find another place to live! But if you like the place and it’s not so expensive like it could be…

Our past doesn’t counts!

2009-08-15T03:13:00.000-07:00

Have you ever thought what has happened in your life? Maybe your childhood wasn’t so good, maybe as a youngster you did something really wrong, maybe someone was telling to you that you will be nothing when you will be grown- up.. And so on I could say many things because fo what you could be a loser or something like that! It doesn’t counts!!! Seriously! You are not obliged to be a loser just because someone thinks so or just because you didn’t born in rich and wealthy family! It’s really up tp you who will you be: a winner or someone else! You can use your past like a thought were you don’t want to be, think about the good things, about who you want to be! Don’t think like others, think like you, find your way in the world and it doesn’t matter if some say it’s a stupid idea.. just do it! Why not?? Of course sometime there are stupid ideas, but still we live only once!! Why not to do something crazy or stupid… you will remember that ater sometime and it will be fun, you will tell stories about what you did to your children and grandchildren… Just don’t waste your life, you have only one! Lived so that someone at the end could say: Hey do it again!!!

Work and language..

2009-08-14T12:05:00.000-07:00

People with what thought in your head do you go abroad to work? What do you expect? When I think about going to some country to work I stop at the question: Do I know the language of the country that I want to go? And if no, I leave the thought about going there… At the time being I am abroad / I am thinking not only to work but to live there too/ I know the language pretty good and I feel ok, I like the country, city that I am living in, I am searching or a job and there some vacancies that I could take, so I am totally ok! I have meet already 2-3 people who have arrived and they don’t know the language at all!! And I am wondering with what thought have they came to here?? Do they believe in some miracles or they just hope that no one will notice? Common, how can you work if you don’t know the language? Still I also see people who doesn’t know the language BUT they are doing all to know it.. they ask words, try to remember them.. they ask possible variants of questions or just word that they can come across in some jobs or interviews and you know after week or something they already star to understand what people say to them! And it’s amazing! But there is another sort of people, who don’t know the language and they are not quiet willing to know it.. they just wait or something and hope that someone will take them..
I could just advice to those who are planning to go somewhere, before you go think about language!! If you don’t know it maybe the best that you could do is to take some language course while you are in your country and after that go abroad…

Story how I was flying to Liverpool fom Riga!

2009-08-14T07:34:00.000-07:00

The story begins at the airport of Riga, the check in and so on went almost ok, but nothing unusual for me.. the luggage a bit heavier then I thought / like always/! But then I could not find were are the gates.. because it was not written on a ticket like it used to be / maybe it’s because of crises in economy/ But I found all. And all turned to be good at the end.. so after almost 3 hour flight I arrived at Liverpool, were it was raining /so unexpected to UK no? / I had to find a bus and after a railway station.. so thanks God for people in orange! They are amazing, I know it is their job to help but still thanks! After Riga were there were no one to ask something this was just like heaven!

I had to take two trains to place were I was staying so imagine the picture.. me+ luggage /almost bigger then me/ and big eyes because I have just arrived at the station were I have to catch the next train but I don’t know were it is!! And I have only 7 minutes! At this point / again thanks to good, clever people/ I was running to the stairs up and then down / with luggage of course/ to catch my train! The good news! I caught it!!! The bad one.. I don’t know- I wanted to sleep!!! So after almost 3 hour flight then 2 hour traveling by train I was at the place that I was meant to be!!

Happy happy me!!!

Advice to all- don’t travel alone, especially if you are a women!!!

Short one

2009-07-22T03:15:00.000-07:00

I will be very short in my sayings at this time, I have many thoughts that I want to share with you but I don't have the inthernet. So now I am sitting at the internet cafe and with one eye wathing the clock and with other the screen! I have arrived at the lovely place.. and I am searching for a job in here at the moment a had only one interview but I am still positive that I fill something I am not stupid and so on / I think so / I have also writing soem thoughts on my computer and when I will get acces to better inthernet and so on I will put them in here!
So wish you all luck, enjoy the summer and love the sun!! :)

Last day in LV

2009-07-16T07:15:00.000-07:00

My last day in Latvia! Tomorrow I am going to Great Britain. So I feel a little bit sad to leave friends and parents in here, a little bit scared because I am not sure what will be in there.. Today I am packing my belonging trying to meet some friends, do all what I can!
By the way I wont have internet in there for some time so I will not be able to write, but I will try to get to the internet and write my new ideas, so I WISH TO YOU ALL HAPPY DAY AND EVENING! And have a good rest, if you can go sunbathing and eat cherries!!

man and pregnany

2009-07-15T03:09:00.001-07:00

One of my recent thought: man and pregnancy! What did your man did when you were pregnant? I could say to all man: When we are pregnant we need all love and compassion, all good and positive feeling that we can get!!! We don't exactly need questions and we are not jumping to the roof from happiness when we hear questions like, why you feel so tired and why you not really in the mood and so on! People just read about pregnancy! Try to help and it will all be better of both of you! Of course there are man out there who do that all, thanks God for them! You could teach those who don't understand that! Yet these are just my thoughts and I could be wrong! Still congratulations to all who are pregnant, or have babies! Wish you all the luck!!

By the way I would be very happy to get some e-mail or something if someone has another opinion about things that I write or similar opinion of mine!

Wedding

2009-07-10T11:34:00.000-07:00

Video about our wedding day!!!

" Why you want to be rich? "

2009-07-09T03:17:00.000-07:00

Do you want to rich someday? Would not harm, right? Recently I was searching for some information in the web and found something interesting and after my husband asked about 10 reasons why I would want to be rich, so now I am thinking why! I also recommend you to do it! If you don;t really know why, then take a minute and read this

First of the reasons why could be very simple, in order not to count every cent and not to think should I eat or should I buy something of clothes or go somewhere! I also want that my children would get want they want / of course it won't mean that they could get all the toys and so on.. but it should be like I should think should I get that or just buy something to eat/
Second rather big reason could be that I want to help my parents, they deserve better life, I think then it is right now! Third I would want to travel, see the world and you have to have money to do it!! Fourth I would want to help students or just to those who are not so fortunate.. I could open a fund maybe or something like that. Fifth live in my dream house!! somewhere near the sea... Have something like you see in a movies, but made by my own design maybe, it could be very good!! Sixth make presents!! And not presents that you just try to afford but just good presents, to family members, relatives, friends. It's an amazing feeling when you give someone a present...his look on face... love these moments! Seventh I would want to not only travel, but sometimes go to restaurants and so on, live an amazing life. I could even say luxurious! Eighth, at this point I don't even have ideas why to get rich.. In order to get good health care!!! And not only for my but for my family members too! Ninth to get an opportunity to choose what I want to do not because of money issues but because I want to! To be free in my decisions where to work, what to study! And tenth very close to ninth to be free to choose what I want to study! And not thinking about will I get job or something when I will graduate.. Also one of the reasons could be to open enterprise for young people, so that they could find job..

Now it seems to be that there are a lot of reasons why to get rich!! But let's stop here.. And now let's think how to get there..

People and divorce... Do they deserve happiness?

2009-07-08T02:43:00.000-07:00

How many prejudices do we have? Our mothers have? Maybe some of you don't have them at all.

Because of one talk with my mother I started to think about people who are divorced or just separated. For mothers that something big! Can you imagine that your daughter will marry to the divorced man? And maybe he has even kids from his previous wife.. That could be something horrible, right? But why?? Is it something bad that person once has made mistake, he has understood that and made some improvements / in this case divorce/? Or it could be better that he just lived his life like it is, pretending that all is ok, there is no problems.. what a happy life, no?
Have many people you know that can talk and talk how bad is his or her marriage but they just don't do nothing, they think something like: I lived him for some years and I will do the same for rest of my life... For God sake why? Don't you want to happy in your life?
In some point I would even congratulate those who decides to make difference in their lives, they search for their love and believe me they will find it! And it doesn't matter if they have kids from previous marriages or they are just divorced.. you can still find a person who will really love you and make you and your kids happy! You just have to be patient and really strong person.. because there are still a lot of people who think that divorce is something very very bad!!
I wish you all LUCK and LOVE! Just don't loose your fate in love, love exists and you just can't imagine were it can be!

Your future

2009-07-07T01:22:00.000-07:00

What do you think about your future? Have you already decided what to do? Or you are just hoping that some genius thought will appear in your head one day?
Some time ago I was thinking that I will graduate university, get my diploma, go to work then family, children etc. Now when time is changing, the financial situation in city, country and even in world is changing I just caught myself at a thought that what ones was a good idea now is not so good and hopeful. You get the diploma BUT you can't work because it is not enough and you don't have experience and so on! Common it's not that I just want to work for fun, I have to eat, pay bills.
And now even those you have experience, diplomas etc . they don;t get a good job? Then were is the guarantees that I will get job some day? These thought also were one of the reasons why I thought that MLM business could be the answer and you know it really could be if you are sure that you can do it! Just think about your future, your plans and don't forget about some plans that have those who are at the top! And you know you could be at the top too , just think about it

For my Love

2009-06-29T02:16:00.000-07:00

It's just a short video with pictures to one person that I love very much!!

God

2009-06-21T11:25:00.000-07:00

God is out there and he is helping me! I t is amazing feeling when you can feel it! Just yesterday I was praying, I really wanted to be in a church today but I had not a clue how can I get there! Because I am in other city and church in other.. And can you imagine? Today I was in church and know I even know when it is in city that I am know, isn't amazing?
And I got answers in there about questions that I was thinking today.. I am just glad and happy that miracles are happening and that God helps!

Opening of the youngster's club

2009-06-17T09:47:00.000-07:00

Some days ago I was on a opening of the youngster's club! I can just say that it was amazing! And I am very happy that we still have young people who are dedicated to something and in this case it is music! I even heard some songs that they wrote by themselves! It's really amazing, I think I will go there soon again to help them somehow. I was also happy to see my beloved on stage helping these boys and girls! In the video you will see and hear him and two of the youngsters they are performing a Christian song, by the way it was first time for them to do something! The song is in Russian but I will try to find the words of it in English too.. I just need some time.. now just relax and listen! And have a good day or evening!

TV

2009-06-15T09:18:00.000-07:00

What do you usually watch in TV? I don't watch it very often but still, sometime happens!
Because I was for some days home, just relaxing I watched it!
I have many canals on TV but do they show something good? And here I don't mean horror movies, movies that show some kind of violation and so on! Does TV even show something else?
Ou yes there are soap operas! You can watch them all your life ;)
Still if you want to relax.. what do you do, can you watch TV? Is there something calm and good?
I didn't find, I got only programs about catastrophes, illnesses, other bad things in the world and then programs that I just can't understand because of language, but all I wanted was just relax!
Kids also watch TV, do you see what they watch? And we are surprised of what is happening in the world? Just think more what you see each day

Smoking

2009-06-04T07:54:00.000-07:00

People give it up!! Seriously!! Ok, if you do not have family and you are alone then whatever do what you want but if you have, just think about them a little bit more!

Yesterday I was waiting for my bus to arrive and I saw the picture mum with a small kid , could thin what wrong with that... all is ok! BUT!! After some minutes of sitting mum started to smoke and kid just sit near here.. people do you thin her health would be amazing or what??

And another thing pregnant women and smoking, that I just can get, WHY??
Maybe some smoker can answer to my questions!
Anyway have nice day and a lot of fresh air! ;)

I am for Norway!

2009-05-16T15:42:00.000-07:00

Loved the song " I believe in Fairytale" by Alexander Rybak! Just loved!!! I am very happy that he won, he deserved it!!

Looking forward to hear other songs for him!!

Also searched in the Web information about him! I was amazed!! playing piano and violin sin 5 years!! just wow!!

Boy with talent defenetly!

Bus & Businessman

2009-05-13T14:21:00.000-07:00

I don't know is it good or bad but still. Some days ago I went to the center of the city from my home by bus. I am used to see ordinary people driving with public transport but this time I was a bit curious, because after some stops in the bus came one man in business costume, I said to me: ok, happens!
But the another man came in... then I started to think.. what could mean that people like them drive by bus not with there cars, does that mean that the situation in country is so bad that it starts to effect live of business or people who are in higher posts? Or there is some other explanation? For me it was something new and I just thought all the way, why and what that could mean!

Me and people around me

2009-05-10T13:57:00.000-07:00

To those who are with me, who love me, who are together with me!
Thanks to all!!
You make my life better!!
The song that you will hear is one of my favorite songs, and the photos... just watch them!

P.S.- have a nice day! or night! ;)

News

2009-04-25T14:11:00.000-07:00

At the photo: I & Selin

For some time I have not wrote anything, so decided to do something! Decided also to write in English because I think there are some interesting people who visits my site and who talk in English! So at the time being I am still improving the site, it doesn't go so fast as I want to go.
Soon I will add some new videos and there will be new page in which our business team will be presented, by the way we are still looking for people who want to work with us! Open the shop in internet!

Looking forward to get some notes or comments or letters from you all!!!

Best wishes to all! Enjoy the spring!

About me

2009-03-01T12:20:00.000-08:00

Business academy in Kiev

2009-03-01T11:52:00.000-08:00

8 dienas Kievā!!
Kurās bija iespēja uzstāties uz skatuves, treniņos uzzināt daudz jauna par sevi un pat tikt galā ar dažām bailēm, kas mita kaut kur iekšā!

Pāris vārdos aprakstīt to, ko uzzinaju un ieraudzīju tur būs grūti tomēr ir vērts mēģināt es tā domāju.
1. mācities pie cilvēka, kas ir biznesa treneris-skolotajs jau ne pirmo gadu ir vienkārši pagodinajums.
2. uz 8 dienām būt komandā tik draudzīgā un saliedētā ir vienkārši super!!
3. uzstāties pirmo reizi uz skatuves, kur uzstaajas pat prezidenti.... tas jau ir vienkārši WOW!!!
4. atbrīvoties no pagātnes rēgiem un bailēm... patīkami

Ja godīgi pēc 8 dienām pat negribejās braukt prom!
Interesantakais, ka tikai atbraucot uzzinaja, ka pa 8 dienām esmu kontktējusies ar cilvēku kas ir tuvu Ukrainas prezidentam, cilvēku, kas kontaktējs ar Krievijas zvaigznēm , un ar daudziem citiem, kas pat ir saņēmuši godalgas no valsts par to, ko viņi dara! Nedomaju ka savā ikdienišķajā dzīvē es varētu pie tādiem cilvekiem tuvumā tikt!
Tie treningi, ko mēs veicām tur man lika aizdomāties par daudzam lietām, lika saprast sevi. Un pat deva iespēju dāvāt cilvēkiem mazu gabaliņu laimes!
Pēdējā diena bija Valentīndiena un stiprā dzimuma pārstāvji sagādāja visām fantastisku pārsteigumu: ziedus!!
Mūsu līderiem un arī mums, bija tik patīkami saņemt ziedus tādā dienā, kad esi tālu no mājām un saviem draugiem!
Paspējām arī mazliet apskatīt pilsētu...

PALDIES visiem, ar kuru palīdzību es biju tur!

Tiem, kas tur bija kopā ar mani-izdarīsim to Latvijā!